i’m a 35 year-old mess. so, i packed my bags to find a decent job, but mostly to meet up with good friends. i need to be around them for a while. there’s a “storm” coming and i wouldn’t want to go through it all over again. i need to love myself so i would be moving out of the vicinity for a while. for the first time, it seems, i don’t know where to go. i have a plan but it blurs away and i’m back to my usual state of confusion and indecision. for the meantime, i immersed myself with the normalcy of just being with friends… to gossip, be silly and just be happy .. and watch fun movies. i literally crashed at my friends’ couch, and thank them for giving me a much needed break from my own proverbial couch at home.
in the current state of my consciousness, can’t help to brood along with those gorgeous guys in magic mike… (have to see it again, so i could focus more on the gorgeous abs, er, the story) then those dreamers trying to make an unforgettable indie film (ang babae sa septic tank)… and somehow i got emotional along with a hilarious cougar mom because her son is moving away for college (cougartown)… then i seem to hold back a tear while the GLEE kids is singing queen’s “somebody to love” (one of my favorite sad songs). it made me think of anne hathaway singing the song in ella enchanted. i even found the movie on my friend’s PC and watched it alone. i love the movie. i love anne and i wanted to cry while she’s singing and dancing. it’s a funny scene, theatrical but she could sing well. the obedience spell that was cast on her, though funny at times, is paralyzing at some point. kinda like procrastination. you seem stuck in your emotions, you couldn’t do anything or don’t know where to start. oh, wait we’re not talking about ella enchanted anymore. sigh!
i’m so cluttered, and bursting with hormonal stress and emotions. i need to tweet!
from a friend’s home to another, packed my bags again the next day. off to another home, this time i’m related. my friend told me, “ang bigat ng dala mo, iwan mo na yung iba…” i told her that i will leave some of my stuffs with her. but i feel that my bagpack is still heavy… “hay, bakit ba andami kong bagahe… ” (too much baggage). literally and figuratively. boom!